Mmmm, sorry whoever had to see my last post, i just wish I had like well to be totally honest - better looks, better talent, money to spare(well, I am like spending alot of my money in vancouver but just ughsdk. I could've bought something else instead of just wasting it, ughhh and it was because im so effing stupid too. It's going to get so bad later on - i wont have any money to spare AT ALL then and then i'll be telling the actual truth when I dont have any money left and i'm in debt and rent) and ill just stop complaining already coz it's the same old stuff, im really glad its a little cooler today. I would've been even more out of my mind if it was like it was a few days ago when it was like plus 80 or whatever, i guess I should be glad anyway though, vacation tomorrow right? I need to stop drinking milk though - my voice is even worse than normal(ahaha, I'm just glad im not anyone in my family coz they're probably so used to that horrible schreechy sound that is my singing that they're almost immune to it) coz I was drinking soya milk. It tastes really good but mmmmm, i've been like drinking everything in my fridge coz I cant eat everything in my fridge or i'll get even fatter. Buuuuuut I guess i'll finish the icecream, hehee.  My internet doesnt like me today though, my downloads are sloooooooow. I realized I hardly have any SNSD stuff, and I REALLY want to download that SNSD Tell me cover but that site with the Youtube download links, its not working for me, but oh well. I gotta finish paacking but I dont wannnnnnnnnnt to. I just want to sleep.

Edit: Ohhh, I just rememberd that we might be going to Seattle too coz apparently we still have US money left over in Kristina's bank account so then we might go there too. Idk, i'll write about it later.

I kind of want to leave already but at the same time i dont want to, I dont even know ahaha. Tomorrow, all day its packing packing, and more packing, updating my ipod and checking my friends list and MSN really quick. My head hurts and im sweating and the fan is like in my face, maybe the fan's too old or something and doesnt make anything colder now. DDD: We've had this fan for iek 5938259 years, haha, i'm not even kidding, I remember using it in the summer when I was like 8. I hope I get to talk to Sarahbum on something before I go, and Elyehsungie too.

Anyway, night night if anyone's still on. Sweet dreams <33 Tell me how you're doing ^^

LOL Okay I just realized that my new haircut? ITS LIKE THE EXACT SAME AS SUNGMINNIE'S MINI DRAMA HAIR OLOLOLOLL! gdsg *Dies* And in some angles it looks like Jaeboo and Tiffany's hair(cept longer than Tiffany's) and OLOL! I was watching Chunji this morning~

Why am I still UP? D: jdjgggggusdhh, and i'm such a bad friend. Like not even sometimes LOL I'm just horrible, oh god. And my shoulder still hurts and im being all stupid and insecure about everything because mom cut my hair and it's honestly pretty scary to look at, and that my singing sounds worse than Tiffany live(LOL I LOVE SNSD AND I LOVE LOVE TIFFANY BUT, Im just saying. I sound so bad.) and i guess at least i can.. sort of dance. LOL i was doing this half assed imitation of SNSD's Girls Generation LOL coz I remember seeing Heechul dancing to it during one of their performances and LOL its so fun. And I know when to jump too, ahhaa. I'm so dead tired its not even funny and IM STILL UP. ggggdushd cant sleep. It's DARK and I cant even sleep. Like before it was sbright out so, but i dunno. I miss my Elyehsungie and i dont know if i should stay up to see her or wake up early and watch Chunji to talk to her but I probably cant wake up that early.  My hair looks sick, I took pictures but LOL no. And I'm sppsoed to dye my hair in vancity, not going to happen. There's no point in spending 958459 dollars on like two centimetres of hair. Ughhhhhh i want sleeeeeeeep, why cant I sleep?

Sleeping and napping for some reason just isnt doing anything for my headache, ughhhhhhhh. I've downloaded 15 albums in the past hour and for some reason, theres this one Chinese song in my slow songs playlist and its like.. the only one. LOL, for some reason its kind of funny. Im supposed to pack, and get mom to wash my clothes but i dont want to get up so my laptops on my computer chair and im on my bed still. I dont want to take medicine, im not even really sick. I woke up late today. I want Kangtaaaaaaa, i downloaded all of H.O.T.'s albums just to hear him, ahaha. I havent listened to them yet, i will laterr. Thank god, I dont have to work today. I called in and i dont have to, so hooray. Id be dancing around my room right now if i wasnt so guhfdk.  Its likeit wont leave me a lone, I haateeeee being sick. I love you Kangta, LOL HIS VOICE IS SO PReTTy. And even in this one, hes just talking(my future wedding song~ its so pretty. Its called Always, on his Persona album I think but i dont know foresure becoz i dont want to check;) So pretty. I want to know what hes saying, i mean i want to know by  myself likeee when i can understand Korean. Aiiiiiiishh, i thought it wasnt sick anymoreeee. I loooooooove you Elyehsungieee. And I loooooooove you Henhen, dont be too mad mmmmmm? You always say its okay but its not, are you packing right now? I miss miss miss you already~
Kangta's real name is 안칠현, isnt it pretty?

Edit: My shoulder hurts really badly. Apparently it wasnt just my chest that got sunburned, ggggudsdsklllll

Hi~ I thought this was really cool, I saw it on Soompi here. I thought its really coool 8DDD


Uh, bytehway, the picture under the cut is scary. LOL I was like UGHSJG OHMYGOD when I clicked that Soompi thread. But anyway,

"The Chinese Almanac, also known as the Tung Shu, is commonly known as a book of auspicious and inauspicious dates, but there is so much more to the Tung Shu than that. It is a vast mine of information relating to astrology, codes and symbols, derived by the wise sages and philosophers of ancient China. In this issue, we bring to you the secrets from the almanac regarding moles on your face and what they mean depending on which part of your face they appear."

"Position 6
A mole here indicates intelligence, creativity and skill as an artist. Your artistic talent can bring you wealth, fame and success. It also indicates wealth luck, but this can only be fully realized if you follow your heart rather than stick to conventional means of making a living. Success will come if you are brave.

Position 24
You will achieve fame and fortune in your young age and you are advised to use this period to safeguard your old age, as people with moles here tend to have a harder life as they get older."

6 and 24 were mine, it's really cool coz they're like almost the same as where they are on the picture, it's like WOAH. And it's not half bad either, coz i've been told that i'm creative. Kay, I didnt totally read twhen I was replying the thread on Soompi but HOLY. It's like, really really accurate. D: It(number 6) says that I should 'follow my heart' rather than like picking something to make a stable living or whatever and then 24 says i'll achieve fame? In a young age? LOL not really, haha. But it's kind of strange, ahaha, and it says life will get harder as I get older and that's pretty true actually.  It gets harder and has been but yeah. Success will come if im brave? D: LOL. *isnt brave at all* Like, oh god, LOL. Calling me brave is like, calling a bunny NOT CUTE. D:  Actually, I dont even know WHY im posting this because it doesnt really make me feel that much better about the future(whenever I say "the future" I think of like robots and flying things and aliens LOL D: And Epik High's song, too.) so I guess ahah, more spam for you guys then?

Need to reply Henhen. DDDDDDD: SORRY FOR BEING PHAIL, ILU.  Sorrry.



Okay i'm editing this because THIS thread(called "to the skinny girls who say they eat alot..") on Soompi, what a JERK. D:  I wont say alot because i'll probably offend someone on my friends list but just, people like this make me mad. Actually, now that I think of it, reading this kind of reminded me of like Blair in Gossip Girl(LOL YES I WATCH IT D:) when she had that 'problem' like eating and eating when shes lonely or something like that, I bet that jerkface that posted that thread had a good laugh from watching that. LOL Idk.
This is what I wrote, ahaha. So much for not offending people but gskgsd. D: I guess it's kind of like well "OUR" side of the story, people on Soompi are really mean, and rude. But it's a good way to pass time so I can get tired enough to fall asleep(I'm so tired D: But I just cant fall asleep, I lay down for a while but eh.) so I guess I shouldnt be complaining but their ignorance made me laugh a bit LOLOL 8D

This is what I wrote anyway:

Sorry about before, it's still hot and stuffy and headachey but at least the day's over. Tomorrow will be longg, i'll try not to update then.

Night night, get a good sleep. <333333333333 Oh yeah, and happy Canada day~~ Tell me if the fireworks are nice, i'm not going to see them this year. ^^

<33

ughhhhhhjskdddd i feel so sick it's just, njsmm. I almost never get sick but I have been(or feel like it anyway) right before we\re going to Vancouver. I talked to Dez and I was all super excited but so tired, it was hard to stay awake when we were hanging out. It's really really hot, its not even summer hot or california hot, its hotter than california hot and just, this PEPSI isn't even making me a little bit hyper. It's making me sleepy. I'm supposed to jog(well, haha, i dont know, i dont feel like it but i should) or finish my CDs but i want to sleep but i cant because i want to finish it or at least do some packing.  Tomorrow is the parade and I think I just might die on that float because seriously, ahahha. Sorry about my suueper spam crap i've been posting lately, i've been reallly loopy and out of my mind and tired and irritable. I'm in my short shorts and tank top but gidsgjksdgsdk it never gets this hot here, EVER. It might not even be the weather, just my fever or whatever the hell I have because my 5495845945 hours of sleep doesnt help. Neither does the fan, its clicking and scraping noises really doesnt. And its making me even more gdushgdksging because it's just a little hot, i've only worked a few days, that shouldnt even be a problem at all and im so unfit, its ghhhhhhhhhhh i have to be better than this. Like im always like telling people to eat well and get lots of sleep and stuff LOL and then theres like me eating at the odd hour and not doing anything, and not getting sleep at a decent hour or anything. Windows Media Player can go die, its played this stupid song FIVE times in the past fifteen minutes and im not even kidding, His voice is so nice but I want to choke something because now this song is horrible because it wont stop playing. ggggggggggdsgs. Go away Nicholas Tse, Teo, whatever the the hell your name is.

I overuse this icon, LOLOL 8D;  I looove Hae. He's so cuuute and half of my usericons are of him 8D
I'm updating again because.. i'm really bored. I just woke up and I should go shower now coz im leaving in a few hours but I'm so bored that I dont wannnnt to.
Really bored, bored~~ I will Remember You by Ryan Cabrera is such a good song. It's the song on the grade 9 video, it's gudshk I love it. Hopefully i dont lose the CD(Our grade 9 grad one, the onen with talent time and the video) so I can watch it later, this year was a really good year for me. Work and drama club was pure stress but the school year and I've been doing so much better than last year and the year before, I LOVED our class this year and I dont even KNOW how to describe it but its probably one of the best years of school i'll ever have. I dunno, it might get better, but I did so much better this year. And DANCE, HOLY. I really really suprise myself sometimes coz like, well, I was having some doubts once it was getting closer to competition and recitals but I really did SO good and I'm going to try even harder(or try to try, hehe) and maybe i'll make even more prgress. It's just coz my memory, it isn't that good. DD: I seriously dont know where it went but it went somewhere, LOLO. Like, I'm thinking its because of asian music and stuff, i'm remembering lyrics and songs and tunes from years ago and I recognize familiar songs like right away when i hear them even if i havent heard them for FOREVER. It's just weird, haha. I have really good memory when it comes to songs and music stuff, but actual stuff I need to remember? D: Yeah. I forget EVERYTHING over the summer and everytime only comes back when we review quickly over it in class or something, it's weird.

My stomache is stilll killing, especially eating like cake and stuff last night, IT LOOKED SO GOOD. Chocolate and strawberries and whip cream and yeah, haah. I said i'd go jogging before we leave so maybe i'll do that tonight or tomorrow night. Mmmmmmm, hopefully today though coz tomorrow's the parade. Shopping today~

Hehehehe,  when I was at Auntie Tammy'y house me and Sarahbum were being dorkfaces on MSN LOL OH MY GOD,  I LOVE HER SO MUCH. I cant belieeeve how much I misesd her, ahahah dkfkfksjf LOL just HGSGKS I LOVE HER. I had so much fun talking to her and I was like AHAHAHAH *dies*<3 the whole time OLOLOL and she's so random and AWESOME LOLOLOL.

I'm tireeeeeed, but not stuffy and sweaty because theres finally a fan in my room! Buuut now its like impossible to sleep because its so LOUD and like makes these clicking noises and rattling and LOL D: I'll get used to it eventually but I used to be such a heavy sleeper and now I wake up from like, a LOCK CLICKING. D:
Mmm so I was in the washroom just now and bellh, my nose. I've actually never really NOT liked any of my features(LOLOOL IM NOT CONCEITED. D: GOOD INTENTIONS. "DONT GET ME WRONG, OBEY ME" LOl jgdjsgh :D Full House. I LOVE IT.) excepy my nooose. D: I mean I can make it less noticable by turning my head juuust so and taking  a picture but mmm, yeah. As much as people say that they dont think people who have plastic surgery are fake, they do, honestly.  I mean if I ever had the money and had absolutely NOTHING I would just go for it but people TALK, friends, friends's friends, people who hate you, adn ESPECIALLY my mom's friends. They talk so badly about eachother like ive heard my mom say some really bad stuff about her so called "best friends" and ugh, idk how people can even do that. And anyway, if I ever like say got it reduced a little smaller i'd probably NEVER hear the end of it OHMYGOD SO FAKE, SHES YOUR DAUGHETER AHAHAHA. DDDDDD: And my mom, actually, would probably be even worse. And i already come off fake as I am, like people here. I dont mean to sound like it but somehow I do and then they're just all over me. And that, yeah. D:  Makeup can only do so muchh. LOL this is turning into a complain-about-random-crap-that-i-think-about kind of LJ post but I feel like ranting. Well, talking but I cant really co everyones asleep but so im writing about nothing. It just bothers me sometimes, I dont have a fantastic perfect cute little personanlity, im a big grouch face who complains about little stuff like this and gets tired from working four days in a row, I mean its just SIX hours a day, its not a lot like compared to if I were to be a trainnee(still dreaming! I guess stubbornness can be kind of a good thing, I wont give it up til I know i absolutely CANT do this.. i have doubts but i still sing and practice and dance around and stand on my bed like its a stage, LOL) I mean if i cant do this, I honestly probably wouldnt be able to cope with doing work 24/7.  And uh, yeah, I dont really have much and not even LOOKS D: guhsks. I mean my eyes are prettttty <3333 And my lips are prettyyy, and its just my dad's huge takes-up-half-my-face nose that kinda makes me go like, so i dont have much talent or steady friends or a nice family or much of a good personality or much money or much of anything and i dont even have looks.

LOL IM COMPLAINING, But im in a really good mood actually. LOLOLO 8D; It's weirddd. I dunno, talking to Sarahbum made my day a whole lot better. LOLOL IM SO HAPPY! Coz coz im DONE work for a whole MONTH. A MONTH. A MONTHHHHHHHHH<333333333sk jkajkjgkd AND AND I GOT TO TALK TO SARAHBUM ON MSN AND SPAZ ABOUT RANDOM STUFF LOL and scary movies D: And.. upsidedowny roller coasters, ushgsgksd LOL IM GOING TO GET SO SCARED.  But it sounds like so much fun anyway, hehehe I cant wait til next year~~~ Im really happy ahaha. AND OUR MATCHING EVERYTHING, LOL we are such lesbos but that's okay coz we're Haeface and Sarahbum <33 LOJGSHFJSF EWWWWWWW I SAW A BUG AND IT FLEW AWAY AND EW. DDDDDDDDD: SOMEONE SAVE ME. kdhgjs. its going to be like all crawly and all over my stuffed animals and ME when im sleeping and Ewjhdgdsgskgjd. D:

I probably wont be sleeping for a while.

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